I Try
"I Try" is a soul and R&B song co-written and performed by American singer Macy Gray, released as the second single from her debut studio album, On How Life Is, which came out on July 1, 1999, via Epic Records.[1][2] The track, featuring lyrics by Gray and music by Jeremy Ruzumna, Jinsoo Lim, and David Wilder, explores themes of emotional vulnerability and dependence in a romantic relationship, inspired by Gray's personal experiences with her ex-husband.[1] Issued internationally in September 1999 and in the United States in January 2000, it achieved widespread commercial success, topping the charts in Australia, Ireland, and New Zealand, reaching number two in Canada, number five on the US Billboard Hot 100,[3] and number six on the UK Singles Chart.[1][4] The song's distinctive production includes an organ riff by Ruzumna and bass by Wilder, contributing to its neo-soul sound that helped propel Gray to stardom.[1] Its music video, directed by Mark Romanek, depicts Gray navigating surreal, dreamlike scenarios and won the MTV Video Music Award for Best New Artist in a Video in 2000.[1] At the 43rd Annual Grammy Awards in 2001, "I Try" earned Gray the award for Best Female Pop Vocal Performance and received nominations for Record of the Year and Song of the Year.[5] The single's enduring popularity is evident in its certifications, including platinum status in Australia and gold in the United States,[6][7] reflecting its role as a defining hit of late-1990s and early-2000s pop music.[1]Background and recording
Writing and inspiration
"I Try" was co-written by Macy Gray alongside Jeremy Ruzumna, Jinsoo Lim, and David Wilder during the songwriting sessions for her debut album, On How Life Is.[1] Gray contributed all the lyrics, drawing directly from her personal experiences, while the collaborators helped shape the music, with Ruzumna on organ and Wilder on bass.[1] The song's inspiration stemmed from Gray's real-life struggles in a failing relationship with her then-husband, Tracy Hinds, the father of her three children, as she grappled with repeated attempts to move on but ultimately failed, embodying deep emotional vulnerability.[1] In a 2016 interview, Gray reflected on this period of personal turmoil, noting that many tracks from the album, including "I Try," were born out of her split and the emotional challenges that followed.[8] The writing took place in 1998–1999 amid the development of On How Life Is in Los Angeles, where Gray signed with Epic Records in 1998 and began album sessions that infused her signature raspy vocal style into the creative process from the start.[9] This distinctive voice, often compared to influences like Billie Holiday, was a core element emphasized during these sessions to capture the song's raw, introspective tone.[8] Initial demo versions of "I Try" centered on a soulful ballad structure, highlighting Gray's vulnerable delivery before the track was refined for the final album release.[1]Production and recording
"I Try" was produced by Andrew Slater during sessions for Macy Gray's debut album On How Life Is in 1999.[10] The recording took place at Paramount Recording Studios, Sunset Sound, and A&M Studios, all located in Hollywood, California.[]https://www.discogs.com/release/4843101-Macy-Gray-On-How-Life-Is Recording and mixing for the track were handled by engineer Dave Way, with additional engineering contributions from Darryl Swann, who also provided vocal arrangements and programming.[]https://www.grammy.com/awards/43rd-annual-grammy-awards The process incorporated soulful instrumentation, featuring bass by David Wilder, keyboards by Jeremy Ruzumna, guitar by Bendrix Williams, and piano and orchestral bells by Jon Brion, alongside Macy Gray's lead and backing vocals performed with the B.E.G. group.[]https://www.discogs.com/release/4843101-Macy-Gray-On-How-Life-Is Overdubs and finalization occurred in early 1999, resulting in a track length of 3:59 prior to the album's July release.[11]Composition and lyrics
Musical structure
"I Try" is classified as a neo-soul track incorporating elements of R&B and pop.[12][13] The song features a mid-tempo groove in the key of D major at 76 beats per minute.[14][15] It employs a conventional verse-chorus form, where the verses establish a sparse arrangement centered on piano and bass to build intimacy.[16] The choruses then expand dynamically, incorporating drums, guitar, and backing vocals to heighten emotional intensity.[16][11] Macy Gray's distinctive raspy contralto vocals serve as the focal point, delivering raw emotional depth over the instrumentation. Subtle piano and orchestral bells provide textural support, evoking a retro soul atmosphere.[16] The bridge introduces a shift in dynamics through layered vocal ad-libs, transitioning into the final chorus with a half-step modulation upward before fading out.[17][18]Themes and interpretation
"I Try" centers on the theme of futile attempts to overcome heartbreak, portraying the protagonist's emotional paralysis in the face of lingering attachment to a lost love. Lyrics such as "I try to say goodbye and I choke / Try to walk away and I stumble" illustrate the repeated, unsuccessful efforts to detach, symbolizing an internal conflict where rational intentions clash with overwhelming feelings.[1] This narrative underscores the song's exploration of unrequited love and the profound difficulty of letting go, as the singer admits her world "crumbles" in the absence of the beloved.[19] The song delves into vulnerability in love through Gray's confessional style, which blends raw honesty with a mix of humor and pathos, reflecting broader neo-soul motifs of emotional authenticity. This approach aligns with neo-soul's emphasis on genuine expression.[19] Interpreted as an anthem for relational resilience, "I Try" uses the recurring motif of "trying" to represent personal growth amid repeated failure, highlighting the persistence required to navigate romantic turmoil. The persistent attempts to move forward, despite inevitable setbacks, symbolize a journey toward self-understanding in the context of intimate struggles, without venturing into broader social or political commentary.[19] Gray drew personal inspiration from her relationship with ex-husband Tracy Hinds for these lyrics, grounding the universal themes in her own experiences of emotional paralysis.[1]Release and promotion
Formats and track listings
"I Try" was released in multiple formats, including CD singles, cassettes, and vinyl records, across various regions beginning September 27, 1999, in the UK. A double A-side single paired with "Do Something" was issued earlier in Japan on July 23, 1999. The US release occurred in January 2000 through Epic Records, featuring radio edits for airplay alongside the standard album version.[20][1] The core track listing centered on the album version of "I Try" (3:59), with remixes such as the Full Crew mix (5:21) and JayDee remix (5:55) appearing on maxi-singles and vinyl editions. B-sides commonly included "Don't Come Around" (4:20) and "Rather Hazy" (3:10), while promotional formats featured acoustic versions of the title track.[21][22][23]| Format | Region | Track Listing |
|---|---|---|
| CD Single | UK/Europe | 1. "I Try" – 3:59 2. "Don't Come Around" – 4:20 3. "I Try" (Full Crew Mix) – 5:21 |
| CD Maxi-Single | Europe | 1. "I Try" – 3:59 2. "I Try" (Full Crew Mix) – 5:21 3. "I Try" (JayDee Remix) – 5:55 4. "Rather Hazy" – 3:10 |
| Cassette Single | UK | 1. "I Try" – 3:59 2. "Don't Come Around" – 4:20 |
| 12" Vinyl | Europe | A1. "I Try" (JayDee Remix) – 5:55 A2. "I Try" (Full Crew Mix) – 5:21 B1. "I Try" (Album Version) – 3:59 B2. "I Try" (Bob Power Remix) – 3:51 |
| CD Single (Radio Edit) | US | 1. "I Try" (Radio Edit) – 3:51 2. "I Try" (Album Version) – 3:59 |
Marketing and promotion
"I Try" was released as the second single from Macy Gray's debut album On How Life Is, following the lead single "Do Something", with Epic Records initiating a radio airplay campaign in late 1999 to build momentum ahead of its full U.S. rollout in early 2000.[24][22] To generate buzz, Gray made several high-profile television appearances, performing the track on the UK show Top of the Pops in October and November 1999, as well as on Saturday Night Live in January 2000 hosted by Freddie Prinze Jr.[25][26] These performances highlighted her distinctive raspy vocal style and helped propel the song's international visibility.[27] Promotion extended to Gray's 2000 world tour supporting On How Life Is, where live renditions of "I Try" became a centerpiece, emphasizing her emotive delivery to connect with audiences.[27] Epic Records allocated resources for targeted radio campaigns in key markets, including Europe and Australia, contributing to the single's strong regional performance.[28] The single featured no significant brand tie-ins or commercial partnerships during its initial rollout. However, following its nomination and win for Best Female Pop Vocal Performance at the 2001 Grammy Awards, Epic leveraged the accolade for additional retrospective promotion, including media coverage and replay emphasis on the track.[29][27]Commercial performance
Chart performance
"I Try" entered the US Billboard Hot 100 in February 2000 and peaked at number 5 in 2000, spending 20 weeks in the top 40.[30] The song reached the top 10 in multiple countries worldwide, including the US, UK, Canada, Australia, Ireland, New Zealand, France, Italy, Austria, Netherlands, Belgium, and others. Internationally, it peaked at number 6 on the UK Singles Chart in 1999.[31] "I Try" topped the Australian ARIA Singles Chart in 2000, as well as the Irish Singles Chart and the New Zealand Top 40 Singles Chart.[32][33][34] On year-end charts, the song ranked number 26 on the US Billboard Hot 100 for 2000 and number 18 on the Australian ARIA Singles Chart for 2000.[35][36] The track also demonstrated strong performance in adult contemporary formats, peaking at number 2 on the US Adult Top 40 chart.| Chart (2000) | Peak position |
|---|---|
| US Billboard Hot 100 | 5 |
| UK Singles Chart (1999) | 6 |
| Australian ARIA Singles | 1 |
| Irish Singles Chart | 1 |
| New Zealand Top 40 | 1 |
| US Adult Top 40 | 2 |