Life Is Killing Me
Life Is Killing Me is the sixth studio album by the American gothic metal band Type O Negative.[1] Released on June 17, 2003, by Roadrunner Records, it consists of 15 tracks spanning approximately 74 minutes and was produced by frontman Peter Steele and keyboardist Josh Silver.[1][2]
The record blends the band's characteristic doom-laden riffs, gothic atmospheres, and darkly humorous lyrics with covers of songs by Black Sabbath and Neil Young, alongside spoken-word interludes and original material reflecting Steele's personal battles with addiction, failed relationships, and self-loathing.[1][3][4] It debuted at number 39 on the Billboard 200 chart, marking a commercial presence amid the band's evolving sound post their previous, more somber effort World Coming Down.[5] While fan reception has been strong, averaging 4.42 out of 5 from over 900 ratings, professional reviews noted a shift toward levity and eclecticism that divided opinions on its cohesion compared to earlier works.[1][6] The album was leaked online prior to its official release, highlighting early internet-era challenges for music distribution.[7]
Background and Conception
Peter Steele's Personal Context
Peter Steele, the frontman of Type O Negative, endured chronic substance abuse throughout the early 2000s, including heavy use of cocaine and alcohol that intensified his paranoia and clinical depression, contributing to a pervasive sense of existential dissatisfaction reflected in the album's creation.[8][9] Steele's battles with addiction stemmed from attempts to numb personal pain, leading to erratic behavior that strained interpersonal relationships and band cohesion following the group's post-2000 tours.[10] The death of Steele's father on February 14, 1995, profoundly shaped his worldview, with Steele attributing it to medical negligence, a grievance that directly inspired the album's title track as a critique of incompetent healthcare practices.[11] In interviews, he expressed enduring resentment toward physicians for failing to prevent the loss, framing it as emblematic of broader systemic failures in modern medicine rather than passive misfortune.[12] This event compounded his physical traumas, including botched treatments and chronic health issues, fueling a mindset of raw, unfiltered self-scrutiny over indulgent victimhood. Steele's romantic history involved repeated betrayals, including a near-decade-long relationship in the 1980s that dissolved amid infidelity, fostering outspoken cynicism toward gender dynamics and female reliability in commitments.[13] He articulated distrust rooted in these experiences, rejecting romanticized notions of partnership in favor of blunt acknowledgments of human flaws like deceit and self-interest, which informed his broader commentary on societal erosion without excusing personal accountability.[14] This perspective emphasized causal self-responsibility amid despair, countering self-pity through confrontational honesty about one's role in relational and existential failures.[8]Songwriting and Influences
Peter Steele, the band's primary songwriter, crafted the material for Life Is Killing Me by integrating heavy, doom-laden riffs reminiscent of Black Sabbath with melodic hooks and orchestration echoing the Beatles, aiming for a more accessible yet mature evolution of Type O Negative's gothic metal sound.[7][15] This fusion marked a deliberate shift from the band's earlier punk-thrash origins in Steele's prior project Carnivore toward layered, orchestral arrangements that emphasized emotional depth over raw aggression.[16] Lyrically, Steele infused tracks with undertones of skepticism toward institutional religion and cultural pressures, drawing from personal disillusionment with self-destructive habits and relational dynamics, as seen in songs addressing death, drugs, and relational betrayal.[17] For instance, "I Like Goils" employs satirical humor to assert heterosexual preferences amid unwanted advances following Steele's 1995 Playgirl appearance, reflecting a broader resistance to imposed identity narratives prevalent in media at the time.[3] These elements avoided overt preachiness, prioritizing introspective critique grounded in Steele's lived experiences rather than abstract ideology. Bandmates contributed to refining the compositions: keyboardist Josh Silver enhanced the atmospheric, gothic orchestration through effects and programming, while drummer Johnny Kelly provided rhythmic foundations that supported the shift to a fuller, more dynamic production.[18] This collaborative polishing evolved the tracks from Steele's initial demos into cohesive pieces that balanced doom's heaviness with pop-inflected accessibility, without diluting the band's core misanthropic edge.[16]Recording and Production
Studio Sessions
Recording for Life Is Killing Me took place primarily at Systems Two Recording Studio in Brooklyn, New York, during 2002 and into early 2003.[19] The sessions were self-produced by vocalist-bassist Peter Steele and keyboardist Josh Silver, with drummer Johnny Kelly—who had joined the band in 1994 following Sal Abruscato's departure—providing live drums and contributing early song ideas.[16] Silver hosted initial writing sessions at his home, supplying demo cassettes to help develop arrangements, while the band rehearsed tracks like the title song at Systems Two, owned by engineers Joe and Nancy Marciano.[16] The process was marked by interpersonal tensions and interruptions stemming from Steele's personal struggles, including addiction, rehab, and an arrest for assaulting his ex-girlfriend's husband by breaking his jaw, which contributed to a period of disorganization and moodiness.[3] Band members faced their own life changes, such as guitarist Kenny Hickey and Silver becoming fathers and Kelly undergoing divorce, exacerbating the low point in group dynamics described by Kelly as tumultuous despite some lighter musical elements.[3] [16] Roadrunner Records A&R representative Monte Conner provided feedback during the sessions, expressing initial skepticism toward certain tracks amid the band's established cult following, though the album remained largely band-controlled.[3] These factors led to a disjointed workflow, with some riffs originating from prior sessions and the final product adhering closely to the 74-minute CD limit.[16]Technical Aspects and Challenges
The album Life Is Killing Me was produced by Peter Steele and Josh Silver, with engineering handled primarily by Mike Marciano at Systems Two Recording Studio in Brooklyn, New York.[20] This setup allowed for the integration of Silver's keyboard layers, which added atmospheric synth elements and emotional depth to the gothic metal sound, complementing Steele's prominent bass lines recorded using a custom Fernandes Tremor bass.[21] The production retained Type O Negative's signature doom-laden riffs, often derived from earlier demo sessions, while incorporating programmed drums consistent with the band's prior work.[16] Recording faced significant hurdles due to internal band turmoil and Steele's disengagement, exacerbated by personal issues including heavy partying and lack of focus, which Kenny Hickey later described as contributing to the album being their "weakest" in terms of commitment.[22] Slow tempos, such as sections at 60 beats per minute spanning eight measures equating to over three minutes, resulted in extended track durations that required post-recording trims to adhere to the 74-minute CD capacity limit, preventing inclusion of additional material beyond two tracks later used in a compilation.[16] The total runtime of 74:30 across 13 tracks, including deliberate immersive outros on songs like "Anesthesia," reflected artistic choices for sonic expansiveness rather than structural flaws, though these lengths amplified production constraints.[20]Musical and Lyrical Content
Musical Style and Composition
Life Is Killing Me employs a gothic metal framework anchored in doom riffs reminiscent of Black Sabbath, characterized by slow, heavy guitar progressions that emphasize down-tuned distortion and modal phrasing for a sense of inevitability and weight.[6] These elements are refined through clean, layered production that preserves sonic density while enhancing clarity and accessibility, allowing the album's brooding intensity to resonate without excessive muddiness. Specific tracks, such as "I Don't Wanna Be Me," diverge with thrash-punk infusions, featuring accelerated rhythms, choppy guitar stabs, and power-pop hooks that inject urgency and melodic bite into the otherwise deliberate tempos.[23] Central to the composition is Peter Steele's detuned bass, often dropped to B or lower, which forms the rhythmic and harmonic core, blending melodic lines with overdriven sustain to mimic guitar leads and underpin the doom-laden grooves.[25] Josh Silver's keyboards provide gothic ambiance via sustained pads, Mellotron-like choirs, and subtle orchestral textures, creating immersive spatial depth that complements the metallic aggression without overpowering it.[23] Johnny Kelly's drumming, marked by tight snare cracks and controlled fills, enables fluid dynamic shifts—from monolithic plods to propulsive bursts—facilitating the album's structural contrasts and preventing monotony.[23] At 74 minutes in length, the album's pacing prioritizes extended compositions with purposeful builds, such as crescendoing bridges and tempo modulations, to foster thematic immersion rather than filler, as evidenced by the deliberate escalation in tracks like "Todd's Ship Gods (Above All Things)."[26] This approach counters critiques of overlength by leveraging musical theory principles like tension-release cycles, drawing on the band's established slowcore tendencies to construct a cohesive auditory narrative.[6]Lyrical Themes
The lyrics of Life Is Killing Me center on motifs of profound self-loathing and existential despair, reflecting Peter Steele's documented struggles with depression and bipolar disorder, which he linked to his songwriting process.[27] Steele channeled these emotions into music as an alternative to self-destructive acts, producing content that underscores personal dissatisfaction rather than external blame.[27] This self-hatred manifests in direct confrontations with one's identity, prioritizing raw accountability for internal turmoil over societal or psychological excuses for inertia.[3] Mortality emerges as a recurring critique of medical overreach, particularly the prolongation of suffering through interventions that defy natural endpoints, drawn from Steele's observations of his father's terminal cancer in the early 2000s.[3] Lyrics assail the hypocrisy of oaths binding practitioners to preserve life at all costs, advocating implicitly for euthanasia in cases of unrelenting agony and framing such persistence as a form of cruelty rather than compassion.[3] Familial loss amplifies this theme, with textual homages to parental figures evoking regret over irreversible separations and the futility of human bonds against decay.[3] Addiction and relational betrayal further illuminate causal chains of consequence, rooted in Steele's real-time experiences with substance dependency and romantic infidelity around the album's 2003 creation.[3] These elements reject narratives of helpless victimhood in substance abuse or heartbreak, instead highlighting how individual choices—such as unchecked indulgence or vengeful responses to betrayal—exacerbate isolation and self-inflicted harm.[27] Steele's sardonic humor punctuates this realism, debunking normalized self-pity through ironic detachment; for instance, expressions of preference for female companionship satirize demands for fluid sexual openness, positioning such assertions as defenses of innate orientation against enforced political correctness.[27] Overall, the lyrics enforce a worldview of unsparing realism, where despair stems from volitional failures rather than amorphous systemic forces.[3][27]Notable Tracks
The title track "Life Is Killing Me", clocking in at 6:35, critiques healthcare incompetence through Peter Steele's fast-paced lyrical rant, underscored by introductory hospital sounds simulating electrocardiograms and electrocardiograph beeps, blending the band's gothic doom with heightened punk-inflected aggression.[11][1][28] "I Don't Wanna Be Me", the album's sole promotional single and its second track at 5:10, centers on self-loathing as Steele laments fame's toll on personal identity, merging catchy, melodic choruses with driving riffs to convey raw emotional despair in an anthemic structure.[29][3][1] Among the album's covers, "Angry Inch"—a rendition of the punk number from the off-Broadway musical Hedwig and the Angry Inch—exemplifies Type O Negative's selective irreverence, reinterpreting lyrics about botched gender reassignment surgery into a heavy, deadpan gothic metal adaptation that retains the original's raw edge while amplifying the band's signature morbid wit.[30][31]Release and Promotion
Marketing Strategies
The marketing strategy for Life Is Killing Me emphasized Type O Negative's niche appeal to its dedicated fanbase, capitalizing on Peter Steele's towering physical presence, sardonic humor, and reputation for unfiltered introspection rather than pursuing broad commercial tie-ins or mass-media advertising. Roadrunner Records, the album's distributor, focused pre-release efforts on targeted outreach to metal media and industry contacts, including the distribution of promotional CDs featuring select tracks to generate editorial coverage and radio airplay within goth and alternative circles.[32] This approach aligned with the band's avoidance of mainstream pandering, prioritizing authenticity over aggressive sales tactics in an era when digital streaming was nascent and physical media dominated.[33] Steele featured prominently in promotional interviews, where he teased themes of personal reckoning and health struggles, framing the album as a visceral confessional amid his publicly acknowledged battles with substance abuse and bipolar disorder. In a 2003 Rock Hard magazine discussion, he linked delays in production to these issues while hinting at sobriety efforts, positioning Life Is Killing Me as a raw artifact of recovery without overt endorsement deals or celebrity collaborations.[34] Such disclosures appealed to fans attuned to the band's lore of vulnerability, though Steele's later admissions revealed ongoing relapses, underscoring the promotional narrative's emphasis on gritty realism over polished redemption arcs.[35] Pre-launch physical materials were sparse, limited to advance press kits and posters leveraging the album's morbid cover art and gothic motifs for in-store displays and tour flyers, reflecting the early 2000s' constraints on widespread online dissemination. A key announcement came via press release on March 25, 2003, finalizing the tracklist to build anticipation among subscribers to metal newsletters and fanzines, with minimal web presence beyond the band's basic site updates.[36] This fan-centric, low-key rollout proved effective for sustaining cult loyalty without diluting the band's outsider ethos, as evidenced by subsequent tour-driven buzz rather than standalone ad spends.[37]Singles and Videos
"I Don't Wanna Be Me" was released as the sole official single from Life Is Killing Me in 2003, capturing the album's core motifs of self-disgust and existential rejection through its punk-inflected gothic metal arrangement.[3] The track's official music video, produced to accompany the single, stars actor Dan Fogler portraying a range of celebrity impersonations, including Michael Jackson and Peter Steele himself, to convey the song's themes of identity flux and personal alienation via satirical humor.[3][38] In the video, Fogler depicts an individual retreating to a banal home life before filming himself in transformative guises, emphasizing isolation through escapist role-playing and underscoring the lyrical intent to reject one's inherent self.[38] Absent additional singles or video campaigns—consistent with the album marking Type O Negative's final Roadrunner Records release—fan interest in tracks like the somber ballad "Nettie" was sustained primarily via live performances, where the band's theatrical delivery amplified emotional resonance without formal visual media.[1]Commercial Performance
Chart Positions
Life Is Killing Me debuted at number 39 on the US Billboard 200 chart dated July 5, 2003.[39] In Germany, the album reached a peak position of number 9 on the official album charts, entering on June 30, 2003.[40] This performance reflected comparatively stronger reception in European markets with established gothic metal audiences, as evidenced by the higher German ranking relative to the US entry.[40] By contrast, the band's prior album October Rust (1996) peaked at number 42 on the Billboard 200.[41] Such positions underscored persistent challenges for the genre in achieving mainstream US crossover beyond niche appeal, despite consistent mid-chart entries for Type O Negative's releases.[39][41]Sales and Certifications
Life Is Killing Me debuted at number 39 on the Billboard 200 chart, registering first-week sales of 27,000 copies in the United States.[42] Worldwide, the album has sold an estimated 100,000 units.[43] These figures underscore its niche appeal within the gothic metal genre, falling short of the commercial thresholds achieved by earlier Type O Negative releases like Bloody Kisses, which reached platinum status.[44] The album received no certifications from major bodies such as the RIAA or equivalent international organizations, highlighting a lack of blockbuster momentum despite the band's established fanbase.[45] This outcome aligns with broader industry trends in the early 2000s, where gothic metal faced diluted visibility amid the dominance of nu-metal and alternative rock acts vying for mainstream attention, limiting crossover potential for specialized releases.[43]Critical and Fan Reception
Contemporary Reviews
Upon its release on June 17, 2003, Life Is Killing Me elicited mixed responses from music critics, who praised its production polish and melodic hooks while critiquing its stylistic excesses and perceived lack of innovation. AllMusic's review noted that the album "breaks no new ground, but engages throughout," highlighting accessible tracks like "I Don't Wanna Be Me" as exemplars of the band's gothic oeuvre, though it ultimately deemed the effort familiar rather than groundbreaking.[46] MetalReviews.com offered a more enthusiastic take in May 2003, scoring it 90/100 and calling it a "killing album" that ranks as Type O Negative's most listenable since Bloody Kisses, crediting its blend of punk-infused energy in songs such as "I Don't Wanna Be Me" and "Angry Itch" alongside thematic explorations of personal torment and relationships for revitalizing the band's sound.[15] Similarly, Last Rites commended the album's diverse soundscape, incorporating upbeat punk elements and 1960s-inspired vibes amid its darker tones, which contributed to a professional sheen that broadened its appeal beyond core gothic metal audiences.[23] Critics on the negative side, however, faulted the record's 78-minute runtime and indulgent structure—spanning 13 tracks with extended intros and atmospheric interludes—as diluting its impact. Drowned in Sound's August 2003 assessment rated it 6/10, labeling it a "triumph of cod-gothic atmospherics over any particular substance," with choppier guitars failing to offset the dominant keyboards and a perceived absence of deeper lyrical payoff despite the morbidity.[47] While some reviewers appreciated the unfiltered edge in lyrics addressing infidelity, self-loathing, and societal decay—viewing it as a candid rebuke to sanitized norms—others decried the excess as gimmicky, reinforcing the band's persona over substantive evolution.[23]Long-Term Assessments and Fan Views
Over time, retrospective analyses have highlighted Life Is Killing Me for its raw confessional quality, capturing Peter Steele's battles with addiction, organ failure, and self-destructive habits in a manner that eschews romanticization for stark realism. Music biographer Jeff Wagner describes the album as showcasing "a remarkable spread of moods as myriad and colorful as had been heard on any Type O Negative record," emphasizing Steele's unfiltered exploration of personal decay without external excuses.[48] This authenticity resonates in hindsight, as Steele's lyrics on tracks like "I Like Goils" and "Todd's Short But True Demography Lesson" prefigure his 2010 death from heart failure, compounded by years of alcohol abuse, rendering the record a prescient document of unchecked physiological toll.[4] Fan communities, particularly on platforms like Reddit's r/typeonegative subreddit, have increasingly defended the album against early dismissals of stylistic inconsistency or perceived band fatigue, arguing its immersive length fosters deeper emotional engagement. Users frequently cite revisits revealing hidden strengths, with one 2023 post proclaiming it "still depressingly brilliant" on its 20th anniversary, valuing the gothic-doom immersion over polished cohesion.[49] Another thread questions its underrated status, countering "overstaying" critiques by praising experimental shifts like the punk-infused energy as extensions of Steele's multifaceted persona.[50] While acknowledging flaws such as uneven pacing—evident in the 11-minute "The Dream Is the Dream"—enthusiasts prioritize the causal directness of Steele's admissions, viewing them as superior to sanitized narratives in contemporary metal.[51] This grassroots reevaluation positions Life Is Killing Me as a cult favorite within Type O Negative's discography, often ranked highly for its wit and vulnerability amid broader legacy discussions. Fans in 2024 threads describe it as "criminally underrated," appreciating how its thematic honesty sustains appeal two decades later, distinct from more uniform earlier works.[52] Such views underscore a preference for substantive introspection over structural perfection, aligning with Steele's documented disdain for performative optimism in interviews.[53]Controversies and Criticisms
Lyrical Content Debates
The lyrics of Life Is Killing Me elicited debates over their provocative tone, particularly in tracks employing hyperbolic satire to critique personal failings and societal excuses. Songs such as "I Like Goils" drew accusations of promoting homophobia through crude references to unwanted same-sex advances, with critics arguing the content normalized derogatory attitudes under the guise of humor.[54] For instance, lines rejecting Vaseline and affirming heterosexuality were interpreted as maliciously dismissive of gay interest following Peter Steele's 1995 Playgirl appearance, contributing to broader claims of insensitivity in the band's oeuvre.[29] [54] Supporters countered that such lyrics reflected Steele's signature ironic detachment and self-aware exaggeration, intended as a punkish rebuttal to external pressures rather than literal endorsement of prejudice.[6] The track's brevity and stylistic shift to raw punk underscored its role as comic relief amid the album's heavier themes of mortality and regret, aligning with Type O Negative's history of blending misanthropy with levity to highlight relational and existential pitfalls without excusing personal accountability.[55] This perspective emphasized causal realism in lyrics that rejected victim narratives, such as blaming drugs or infidelity for downfall, instead favoring unflinching self-confrontation evident in tracks like "Anesthesia" and the title song.[56] Broader lyrical disputes centered on the album's dismissal of normalized justifications for failure, with some reviewers praising the raw honesty as anti-victimhood realism that pierced through self-pity.[6] However, detractors viewed the hyperbolic portrayals—often targeting interpersonal dynamics—as veering into hate speech, potentially desensitizing audiences to misogyny or prejudice via "dark humor" that crossed ethical lines.[54] Steele's own defenses against misogyny charges in interviews highlighted the intentional exaggeration as artistic provocation, not endorsement, though these rebuttals did little to quell retrospective critiques of the content's edge-skirting nature.[57] These interpretations underscore a divide: empirical readings of the texts as therapeutic catharsis versus concerns over their cultural impact in amplifying unchecked biases.[54]Peter Steele's Persona and Public Backlash
Peter Steele, standing at 6 feet 8 inches and known for his muscular physique cultivated through bodybuilding, projected an imposing gothic image that media outlets often linked to perceptions of misogyny, particularly when paired with Type O Negative's provocative lyrics.[58] Critics and detractors interpreted songs like "I Like Goils" from Life Is Killing Me—which satirically rejected advances from gay fans following Steele's 1995 Playgirl nude photoshoot—as evidence of homophobia and broader sexism, amplifying earlier accusations from his Carnivore era.[3] [58] Steele and bandmates consistently defended these as manifestations of his razor-sharp, self-deprecating black humor, insisting that literal readings missed the ironic intent rooted in personal frustrations rather than genuine hatred.[58] This persona drew backlash from mainstream and "polite society" circles for Steele's unfiltered critiques, including his disdain for the medical establishment as profit-driven ("I really don’t like doctors… everything comes down to money") and admissions of sexism directed at men rather than women ("I admit I am a sexist – I hate all men").[3] [8] Such views, expressed amid the album's themes of self-loathing and institutional distrust, clashed with prevailing progressive norms, positioning Steele as an outlier who prioritized raw emotional honesty over sanitized discourse. In contrast, fans often celebrated this authenticity, viewing his candor about relational betrayals and human flaws—sublimated into lyrics rather than real-world violence—as a refreshing counter to performative sensitivity.[8] Steele's struggles during the Life Is Killing Me period, including rehab attempts amid a breakup and an arrest for assaulting his ex-girlfriend's new husband, underscored a shift away from glamorized addict tropes toward stark depictions of addiction's toll.[3] Bandmate Kenny Hickey noted Steele was "at one of his worst points," with rehab yielding no immediate improvement, highlighting the causal grind of dependency that fueled the album's morbid introspection without romanticizing it.[3] This vulnerability challenged public fascination with his hedonistic facade, revealing a man whose public bravado masked profound personal erosion.[3]Legacy and Post-Release Developments
Cultural Influence
Life Is Killing Me reinforced Type O Negative's role in gothic metal by integrating dark humor with explicit depictions of addiction and self-destructive tendencies, resonating with audiences who valued unvarnished personal accounts over abstracted therapeutic frameworks.[4] Peter Steele's lyrics, drawing from his heroin dependency and recovery attempts circa 2003, presented these struggles through satirical lenses, such as in "I Like Goils," where Brooklyn-accented wordplay defused rumors about his sexuality while underscoring relational isolation.[56] This approach echoed Steele's broader persona, marked by ironic detachment amid despair, which fans later cited as a counterpoint to sanitized mental health narratives prevalent in post-2000s media.[59] In metal subcultures, the album's medical critiques—evident in the title track's dismissal of physicians and tracks like "Angry Inch" invoking botched interventions—fostered discussions prioritizing individual agency and skepticism toward institutional remedies for addiction.[60] Steele's raw admissions, informed by his documented substance battles, contrasted with denialist tendencies in some progressive circles, influencing a niche embrace of "addiction realism" among listeners who viewed his work as authentic testimony rather than performative vulnerability.[10] Fan recreations, including guitar covers of key tracks, have sustained these motifs in underground scenes, linking the album to ongoing gothic aesthetics without spawning widespread genre revivals.Reissues and Anniversaries
To commemorate the 20th anniversary of the album's original release, Type O Negative issued a deluxe edition in multiple formats, including a 2CD set and a triple LP vinyl pressing featuring green and black mixed vinyl.[61] [62] The reissue marked the first standalone vinyl presentation of Life Is Killing Me, previously unavailable in that format outside bundled collections, and incorporated bonus material on a dedicated third disc comprising previously released tracks from compilations.[63] [64] Originally scheduled for January 10, 2024, the release faced a production delay, shifting to April 19, 2024.[61] [65] Limited-edition variants, such as a full metal jacket grey triple LP restricted to 1,000 copies, were offered exclusively through the band's official store, alongside anniversary-themed merchandise including apparel and accessories managed under the estate's oversight following Peter Steele's death in 2010.[63] [61] These editions enhanced accessibility for collectors and fans, with streaming platforms maintaining the album's availability and contributing to renewed interest in the band's catalog post-Steele's passing, though no dedicated streaming-exclusive revivals were announced.[66]Track Listing and Formats
Standard Edition
The standard edition of Life Is Killing Me, released on June 17, 2003, by Roadrunner Records, comprises 13 tracks with a total runtime of approximately 74 minutes.[1] Songwriting credits are primarily attributed to frontman Peter Steele, as verified in album production notes, with select tracks involving additional band members.[67]| No. | Title | Duration | Writer(s) |
|---|---|---|---|
| 1 | "Thir13teen" | 1:07 | Peter Steele |
| 2 | "I Don't Wanna Be Me" | 5:11 | Peter Steele |
| 3 | "Less Than Zero" | 5:23 | Peter Steele |
| 4 | "Todd's Ship Gods (Above All Things)" | 1:51 | Peter Steele, Josh Silver, Kenny Hickey, Johnny Kelly |
| 5 | "I Like Goils" | 4:21 | Peter Steele |
| 6 | "...A Dish Best Served Coldly" | 7:11 | Peter Steele |
| 7 | "How Could She?" | 6:23 | Peter Steele |
| 8 | "Angry Inch" | 3:40 | Peter Steele |
| 9 | "Everyone I Love Is Dead" | 6:11 | Peter Steele |
| 10 | "Life Is Killing Me" | 6:41 | Peter Steele |
| 11 | "Anesthesia" | 6:42 | Peter Steele |
| 12 | "...And Then There Were None" | 4:47 | Peter Steele |
| 13 | "Stay Out of My Mind" | 4:06 | Peter Steele |