My Demons
"My Demons" is a song by the American rock band Starset, released on October 24, 2013, as the lead single from their debut studio album, Transmissions. The track, written by Dustin Bates along with Stephen Aiello and Rob Graves, delves into themes of psychological struggle, isolation, and the desperate call for rescue from one's inner torment, framed within the band's signature cinematic rock style blending electronic elements with heavy riffs. It marked Starset's breakthrough, garnering widespread radio play and establishing their science fiction-inspired narrative universe.[1][2][3] Starset, formed in Columbus, Ohio, in 2013 by Bates—a former member of the band Downplay—the band draws from cosmic and dystopian motifs, positioning their music as intercepted transmissions from a future conflict. "My Demons" was produced by Rob Graves, and features a music video that visualizes the song's themes through surreal, interstellar imagery. Released initially as a promotional digital single, it preceded the full album's launch on July 8, 2014, via Razor & Tie Records.[4][5][6] Commercially, "My Demons" peaked at number 5 on the Billboard Mainstream Rock chart, spending a record 42 weeks on the tally in 2014—the longest run for any song that year. The single has accumulated over 500 million streams and views across platforms as of 2025, contributing to Starset's rising profile in the alternative rock scene. It was certified gold by the RIAA in 2018 and platinum in 2021, reflecting its enduring popularity and frequent inclusion in media soundtracks, including video games and trailers.[7][4][8][9][10]Background and creation
Development
Starset was formed in 2013 by Dustin Bates in Columbus, Ohio, as a cinematic rock project deeply inspired by science fiction narratives and real-world scientific concepts.[11] Bates, who had previously served as the vocalist for the band Downplay and held a background in electrical engineering, envisioned Starset as a multimedia endeavor in collaboration with the enigmatic Starset Society, aiming to blend rock music with themes of human potential and technological cautionary tales.[12] This formation marked the beginning of Bates' shift toward integrating his interests in space exploration and storytelling into a cohesive artistic vision.[13] "My Demons" originated as the lead single for Starset's debut album Transmissions, with Bates penning the track to encapsulate themes of personal struggle, inner demons, and empowerment through relational support.[12] The song's narrative draws from Bates' intent to create relatable lyrics that mirror the album's overarching sci-fi lore while addressing universal emotional battles.[14] Initially developed as part of the project's early conceptualization, it was positioned to introduce the band's sound and message to audiences.[12] Bates' extensive experience in music production, gained through his work with Downplay and independent projects, heavily influenced the song's creation, allowing him to experiment with layered production elements from the outset.[15] Additionally, his fascination with superhero tropes shaped the lyrical framework, portraying a downtrodden protagonist who gains strength from a love interest—a dynamic that parallels the relationship between Tony Stark and Pepper Potts in the Iron Man films.[16] This approach infused the track with motivational undertones, aligning it with Bates' broader goal of inspiring listeners amid adversity.[14] The writing sessions for "My Demons" took place in early 2013, coinciding with the inception of the Transmissions album and the assembly of Starset's lineup.[12] Bates led the process, starting with solo composition before incorporating input from band members—such as guitarist Brock Richards and bassist Ron DeChant—on initial demos to refine the arrangement and ensure it fit the cinematic aesthetic.[17] These collaborative efforts solidified the song's structure, setting the stage for its radio release later that year.[12]Recording
The recording of "My Demons" occurred in 2013 in Nashville, Tennessee, as part of the sessions for Starset's debut album Transmissions, under the production oversight of Rob Graves for the Razor & Tie label.[18] Dustin Bates, the band's frontman and primary songwriter, contributed to the creative direction throughout the process.[19] The production incorporated electronic programming by Graves, Josh Baker, Chris Flury, Rob Hawkins, and Alex Niceforo to integrate synth layers with the band's hard rock foundation, while orchestral depth was achieved through string arrangements by David Davidson and Graves, featuring performances by Nashville session musicians including violinists David Angell and David Davidson, violist Monisa Angell, and cellist John Catchings.[18] This approach created a cinematic atmosphere by layering strings over guitars and vocals, emphasizing the track's blend of intensity and epic scope.[19] Mixing was handled by Ben Grosse at Mix LA, with assistance from Paul Pavao, and the process concluded in time for the single's promotional release on August 1, 2013, ahead of the full album's completion later that year.Composition and themes
Musical style
"My Demons" is classified as an alternative rock track incorporating elements of hard rock, electronic music, and orchestral arrangements. The song features prominent boisterous electric guitars and a driving bass line that contribute to its energetic rock foundation, complemented by a highly catchy chorus designed for broad appeal. These hybrid influences create a distinctive sound that blends aggressive rock instrumentation with atmospheric production, setting it apart from traditional rock compositions.[20] The song follows a conventional verse-chorus structure with progressive building intensity across its sections, including an introductory "mayday" motif, verses, pre-choruses, choruses, a bridge, and an outro. It has a runtime of 4:48 and is composed in the key of F minor, allowing for a tense, emotive progression that escalates from introspective verses to anthemic choruses. This structure supports the track's dynamic shifts, enhancing its emotional and sonic impact.[21][22][16] Electronic beats and orchestral strings are integrated into the studio production to impart a cinematic quality, evoking a sense of grandeur and narrative depth that distinguishes "My Demons" from pure rock tracks. The hybrid production emphasizes layered synths and string swells alongside the core rock elements, resulting in a polished, immersive soundscape. While acoustic adaptations have been performed in live settings, the original studio version highlights this multifaceted production approach.[20][23]Lyrical content
The lyrics of "My Demons" portray a protagonist overwhelmed by internal struggles, metaphorically represented as "demons" that symbolize personal turmoil and emotional sickness, reflecting a downtrodden individual's journey toward redemption through reliance on a supportive love interest.[14] The narrative begins with imagery of crisis and isolation, as in the opening lines "Mayday, mayday / The ship is slowly sinking / They think I'm crazy but they don't know the feeling / They're all around me / Circling like vultures," evoking a sense of despair and external judgment that exacerbates the inner conflict.[16] Key lines such as "Take my demons away" in the chorus serve as a plea for salvation, underscoring themes of redemption and empowerment derived from interpersonal connection, with the verse "I need your help, I can't fight this forever / I know you're watching, I can feel you out there" highlighting vulnerability and the transformative role of the love interest. The overall arc progresses from helplessness—"I cannot stop this sickness taking over / It takes control and drags me into nowhere"—to hopeful resolution in the bridge and outro, "Take me high and I'll sing / You make everything okay (All okay) / We are one and the same / You take all of the pain away / Save me if I become my demons," illustrating empowerment through unity.[16][12] Poetic devices enhance the emotional depth, particularly the repetition of "Take my demons away" in the chorus, which builds urgency and reinforces the theme of seeking release from turmoil, allowing listeners to immerse in dual metaphors of personal and cosmic struggle.[14] This structure ties the song's intimate redemption narrative to Starset's expansive sci-fi lore, where individual battles mirror humanity's fight against manipulative technology.[24]Release and promotion
Single release
"My Demons" was first released independently as a promotional digital single on August 1, 2013, by the American rock band Starset, serving as the lead single for their debut studio album Transmissions, which followed on July 8, 2014, via Razor & Tie Records.[1][25][26] The track was distributed primarily in digital formats, including downloads on platforms like iTunes and Amazon Music, as well as streaming availability on services such as Spotify and Apple Music, targeting the U.S. market initially while achieving global accessibility through these digital channels.[27][28] Physical releases were limited to promotional CD singles sent to radio stations in 2014, with the song later featured on the digital deluxe edition of Transmissions released in 2016.[29] As part of the album launch promotion, "My Demons" received airplay on rock radio stations, helping to build anticipation for Transmissions.[30] International variations included a UK promotional CD release in 2014, though the primary focus remained on North American distribution.[29]Marketing efforts
Following the band's signing with Razor & Tie on April 30, 2014, Starset launched a targeted radio campaign for "My Demons," focusing on mainstream rock stations, which propelled the track to significant airplay, including a historic 41-week run on the Billboard Mainstream Rock Songs chart, peaking at number 5.[31] This push capitalized on the song's independent release in 2013, amplifying its reach through consistent rotation on formats like Sirius XM's Octane channel in late 2013 and early 2014.[32] The band built pre-release hype through social media teasers and direct fan engagement on their official YouTube channel, where early audio uploads in January 2014 and subsequent lyric videos fostered community interaction ahead of the full music video's debut in May.[30] This strategy leveraged fan-driven content, with user-generated videos and shares in gaming and anime communities contributing to over 285 million views for "My Demons" by late 2016, far exceeding official uploads.[31] Promotion extended to live integrations, tying the single to Starset's 2013-2014 tour dates and festival appearances. With over 100 documented concerts that year, including opening slots for acts like In This Moment on the Black Widow Tour, these events showcased "My Demons" as a set staple, sustaining momentum alongside the July album release.[33] Streaming efforts included strategic placements on platforms like Spotify, where inclusions in rock and alternative playlists drove early adoption and long-term growth, with the track amassing millions of streams by mid-decade through algorithmic and editorial recommendations.[27]Music video
Production
The music video for "My Demons" was directed by Denver Cavins and produced by Dustin Bates, with filming taking place in early 2014.[34][35] The production featured a modest budget directed toward achieving a distinctive sci-fi aesthetic, including elaborate visual effects and narrative integration to evoke a sense of cosmic intrigue and historical resonance.[36] A key inspiration for the video stemmed from Nikola Tesla's reported 1899 encounter with an extraterrestrial signal, as detailed in his 1901 publication, which the creative team drew upon to blend real historical elements with fictional storytelling. Archival footage of Tesla, including clips where he discusses receiving mysterious transmissions, was incorporated to ground the visuals in this real-world event while amplifying the video's thematic exploration of signals from beyond.[12][37] Technical production relied on green screen compositing to generate immersive cosmic environments, such as starry voids and ethereal transmissions, allowing the band's live performance footage—captured in controlled studio settings—to be seamlessly woven into the overarching narrative framework. This approach enabled dynamic transitions between the musicians' intense delivery and the video's speculative sci-fi motifs. The completed video premiered on the band's official YouTube channel on May 6, 2014.[36]Synopsis and themes
The music video for "My Demons," directed by Denver Cavins and released on May 6, 2014, unfolds in a sci-fi framework where protagonist Thomas Bell, positioned in the year 2047, transmits a urgent warning signal back through time to recipients including Stephen Browning in 2013 and Nikola Tesla in 1911. This transmission acts as a prophetic alert from a dystopian future, highlighting the perils of unchecked technological advancement and personal downfall. The narrative centers on Bell's struggle as he receives and acts upon this signal, engaging in visceral confrontations with shadowy manifestations of his inner demons amid crumbling, futuristic environments, ultimately leading to a moment of self-empowerment and resolve.[10] Visual elements blend high-concept aesthetics inspired by H.R. Giger's biomechanical designs from Alien, featuring the band performing in custom-fabricated space suits and masks sourced from everyday components like Amazon parts. Key motifs include crackling radio transmissions evoking Nikola Tesla's historical experiments with wireless communication, interspersed with dynamic sequences portraying the protagonist in superhero-esque poses—leaping through voids and shattering dark entities—to symbolize the fight against psychological turmoil. These visuals reinforce the video's immersive, otherworldly tone while tying into the band's self-produced, low-budget yet ambitious production style.[14] Thematically, the video amplifies the song's core redemption journey by framing it as a cautionary time-travel saga within Starset's expansive lore, where transmissions from a ravaged future urge intervention to avert catastrophe. This extension portrays inner demons not merely as personal afflictions but as harbingers of broader societal collapse, culminating in empowerment as a call to action against inevitable doom. The narrative underscores themes of isolation, foresight, and human resilience, positioning the protagonist's victory as a pivotal spark in the band's fictional universe of interstellar warnings.[14][10] In terms of reception, the video propelled the song's viral reach, with YouTube content—including the official upload and a prominent fan lyric video—accumulating 285 million views by November 2016, a figure that has since grown to over 470 million combined as of 2025, reflecting sustained popularity and cultural resonance.[36][38]Commercial performance
Chart positions
"My Demons" by Starset experienced significant traction on American rock radio and sales charts following its release, marking the band's breakthrough as a debut single. The track debuted on the Billboard Mainstream Rock chart in early 2014 and gradually climbed, bolstered by increasing airplay and the May 2014 music video release, before reaching its peak in October 2014. Its extended chart presence underscored its enduring appeal in the rock genre.[8] The song's performance was primarily concentrated in the United States, with more modest results abroad in specialized rock rankings. Below is a summary of its key chart positions:| Chart | Peak Position | Weeks on Chart | Notes |
|---|---|---|---|
| Billboard Mainstream Rock | #5 | 42 | Longest run for a debut rock single at the time; peaked October 4, 2014.[4] |
| Billboard Hot Rock & Alternative Songs | #26 | - | -[8] |
| Billboard Rock Airplay | #26 | - | -[8] |
| World Modern Rock Top 30 Singles | #17 | 5 | International rock airplay aggregate; 2014 entries.[39] |
Certifications and sales
"My Demons" received its first major certification in the United States when the Recording Industry Association of America (RIAA) awarded it Gold status on July 13, 2018, for 500,000 units sold or streamed.[40] The track was later certified Platinum by the RIAA on November 12, 2021, recognizing 1,000,000 units, which includes equivalent album units from streaming and track sales.[41] Early digital sales for "My Demons" were strong, with the track surpassing 73,000 downloads in the U.S. by September 2014, according to Nielsen SoundScan data.[42] Post-2014, the song's performance shifted toward streaming dominance, with digital sales contributing to ongoing equivalents under certification thresholds. By April 2017, it had accumulated over 30 million streams on Spotify.[43] As of November 2025, the song has surpassed 408 million streams on Spotify. Growth continued, exemplified by over 450 million views across YouTube uploads, including a popular fan lyric video, as of 2025.[44][38]| Region | Certification | Units | Date |
|---|---|---|---|
| United States (RIAA) | Platinum | 1,000,000 | November 12, 2021 |